Man, I can't resist, I have to talk about System Shock 2. I downloaded the demo from hotgames.com, and I'm blown away. I wish I had the money to buy the game... Horror movies do nothing to me now, but when I was a kid they freaked me out. And that's what System Shock 2 is like, scary! Half-Life had a lot of mood and feeling to it, but it's just insane in System Shock 2. You can really suspend your disbelief. You can hear the 'zombies' (for lack of a better word) talk. "We are...we are...we are...," "Run! Run! RUN!," "Are you of us?," "I can seeeeee you!" Very creepy. Even the lab monkeys get into the act. The AI is good, too. If you make noise, the people will hear you! The demo is only about an hour and a half long, but I had to stop a few times just to recover from the immersiveness. Check it out.

Well, I had a 'nightmare' about school last night, which I always seem to have this time of year. Only, to my surprise, it was my normal high school dream, not some kind of dream revealing my insecurities and fears about college. My dream was that I was going back to high school (13th grade? hah!), only we were starting where we left off! I was in chemistry, and my teacher expected me to have a bunch of homework done and my notes ready--but I had nothing! Do I have some kind of fear of not being prepared? Well, it did remind me that i still need to buy some school supplies. Personally I'm a little disapointed. My chemistry teacher in high school was a hot little 24-year old. Everyone thought she was a student the first time they saw her. So why the hell couldn't I have gotten it on with her? Even in my dreams I'm a looser!

[Warning: Rant Alert] Okay, a few days ago, I decided to browse the pages hosted on gurlpages.com, just for shits and giggles. Two things: I have never seen so much purple in my life, and whats up with the cliques? Upon further investigation it seems to be some online fad that I'm glad I haven't previosuly noticed. I suppose it's just harmless online shit, but even then, people showing their 'cliques' like they're bowling trophies... "Hi, I have no mind of my own! Here are all the people that do my thinking for me!" I personally try to seperate myself from as many groups as possible. When you belong to associations and organizations, it's easy for people just lable you and not consider you as an individual (of course, this depends on the organization!). I especially stay away from political organizations. When you think of democrats or republicans preconcieved notions immediately enter your head. My own personal beliefs are mine, no one elses. I refuse to even give anyone a chance to assume what I think. I don't even associate with organized religions. But even by doing that you probably immediately assume I'm some god-hating atheist, but I'm not. So you bible thumpers can close that email program. But like I said, I'm probably just over-reacting to some dumb fad. Going back to the purple thing... Come on! Just because you're a girl, and your page is on a girl-releated host doesn't mean your page has to look like the tootsie-pop I had yesterday. I'll probably get hate mail for this paragraph, but oh well.